This morning started uber-early as we had to drive across the city to get some papers signed. We have been having some pretty serious debt problems that we were getting worked out through an agency which removed all the interest off the credit cards, but we found an even better deal. The new deal got our debts down to like a third of what they were and the payments are insanely easy compared to what we were paying each month. If all goes well we will officially be out of debt in a year and half at the latest. Yahoo! Finally.

I have to say it’s really irritating though when I have to get myself up, dressed, do my hair, get my son up, nurse him, get him dressed, feed him, get the diaper bag ready, get all the papers together that we needed to take and somehow, hubby having a coffee, showering and getting dressed makes us late. They say women take forever to get ready? Not in this household!

On the way back from the financial planners’ we stopped to check out the garden centre at the local grocery store. I’ve been chomping at the bit to get a move on so I convinced hubby that we needed to go somewhere. We wandered around and found some really nice plants, but I wanted to see other places too to see if we were getting a good deal or not. I figured that there was probably markup on these plants (coming from a grocery store) that there might not be at a nursery. So we then went to nursery up the street from our place. They had different plants around the same price as we’d already seen. I still want to check out Wal-Mart and see what kind of prices they have in comparison. I’ll probably end up getting my plants from a couple of different places. My Mum is coming over on Wednesday, so I’ve asked the seasoned gardener to assist me with my plant choices.

$270 later my computer is fixed. I can’t believe what the problem was either! It ended up being my memory. That sort of pisses me off since I attempted to do a memory scan, but felt that it wasn’t working since it seemed to run too long. The guy at the shop told me that it took him 45 minutes to run the scan. Damn. I could’ve saved myself some cash. Not all of it since part of that was replacing (and upgrading) my RAM. I now have 1G of RAM to run my Sims2 on. Since I’ve got the system back I have successfully restored my backup (thank goodness!). I really wasn’t sure that it had backed up properly since I kept getting error messages, but everything seems fine. In the mean time I have been madly downloading new files. New houses, furniture, hair…you name it really. Too bad I didn’t manage to get everything fixed at the beginning of the summer.

On that note, I am back to work on Monday. It would be hard for anyone going back to work after 5 weeks off, but I really don’t have the mindset for work. I am seriously not looking forward to going back. In fact I keep thinking I need to check the new postings when I get back and see if there’s anywhere centrally I can apply. I do love the kids and the staff are great, but I think it’s time to go in search of more cash.

My mood lately is another contributing to my dread of going back to work. If I stay behind the walls of my apartment I don’t have to worry about insulting anyone or playing well with others. Strangely enough I spent 3 days and 2 nights with my Mum last week and we had a really nice time. I felt calm and unbothered unlike how I feel now that I’m home. First there’s my financial situation. We are in serious debt that we are working on paying back. It just doesn’t leave us with much of anything after paying all the bills. Then there’s him. I can’t stop yelling at him. He’s driving me crazy. He doesn’t seem to understand the concept of a budget and he won’t get anything done that I ask him to. It’s a hugely long story I won’t get into, but I can’t stand being around him lately and the alternatives keep going through my mind and I don’t really like those either. Why won’t he just shape up?! Not like we haven’t discussed everything. I mean he agrees that he’s the problem and he won’t let me down anymore, then the next day it’s the same old shit. Part of this dark mood I’m in seems to be a great apathy. I don’t feel like doing anything I usually take great interest in. I just want to curl up into a little ball and go away.

In fact I really can’t believe I’m blogging at all. Go figure.